AHHHH, I can't believe I've left my blog again when it's only the fourth week of 2017. It's not even a month of school yet, and I've already felt the tiredness and how busy I am. This is going to be just a quick post, or maybe a ranting post. I'm trying my best to update as fast as I can as I'm currently writing this at 12 AM and I have school tomorrow.

I know I've been gone for a while and first of all, I'm truly sorry. I have a few reasons, and here I am, trying to explain to you guys one by one. I'm telling this so that if I ever went missing again, here's why, I guess? Gosh, I'm not even sure what's going to happen next but here are the reasons why;

Blogger stressed me out
Warning: This is a rant.
Please know that I was so freaking frustrated when I was writing this post. I didn't plan to write this one at first. But guess what happened? I was actually writing another post before this, and I thought it was saved as Blogger usually automatically save our the post throughout our writing process, right? After I've finished my last words, I saved and closed the editing post tab and went for a quick blog walk from my reading list.

When I came back to the editing section of the post I wrote previously, guess what? Everything was GONE. All the words and images in the post were NOT SAVED. I WAS SO HELLA FRUSTRATED. I've sacrificed a lot of my study time just to update my blog, and this freaking Blogger didn't save my content that I've written for hours! Believe me, I was so mad that I went into my room, shut the door and screamed. I was so stressed, guys. It has only been a few 18 days of school, and it already stressed me out, and Blogger just made everything became worst. I want to cry. This tragedy really made me lost my blogging mood for a whole week.

Tonnes of homework
Dude, seriously. Homework is slowly killing me. I mean, yes it's normal for us as SPM candidates to have lots of homework, but because of them and my tuition classes, I end up not having enough time to do things I like that I usually do. For instance, blogging. Again, I know it's totally normal, but this is one of the reasons why I've been gone for awhile. Just saying.

Tuition classes every day
I used to only have tuition classes 3 days a week, and all of them are after 8 PM. Well, sadly, this year I started to have tuition classes 5 goddamn days a week, and 3 of them are in the evening, after 4 PM. I've never thought I would have tuition classes in the evening, but honestly, it's my own decision. Of course, SPM purpose. I'm trying to find the best classes for me that I think could really help me for the upcoming big exam this year, so this is the result. 5 days of tuition classes a week? Yeap. #roadtospm2k17

So many activities
Other than tuition classes and homework, of course, I do have cocurricular activities too. I'm now in my senior year and other than focusing on curricular stuff, we also have to gain cocurricular marks too. Plus, I have a few positions in my clubs and uniforms, so I just have to attend. It's like a compulsory. Also, I still play a sport for my school which is softball. Which literally means I have training and practices to attend. I've been at school on Saturdays lately, too. There are just so many school activities that are making me a bit busy now.

No internet access
This is like, my current biggest problem ever. It has not been even a month yet that I've moved to a new house. And currently, we still have no Wifi. The UniFi team or something, or should I say, Telekom Malaysia, is having a few problems with our house area. They said something like "oh the port there is already full lah, you have to wait for another one" blah blah blah which I don't really understand, but basically we can't use UniFi anymore (or, yet) and we might have to take internet access from another service like Maxis, Streamyx, YES or others. But whatever it is, it's hard for me to go online especially on my computer because of this. For now, I'm using my mum's personal hotspot. Overall, it's very hard not to have internet access. Not only blogging, but I also can't even search for points for my upcoming oral test. AHHHH.

Tired as hell
Overall, I'm just tired. As you guys have read all of the above, you can tell how packed my schedule is and how tired I would be. It's not even February yet, and I'm already tired. Lol, I swear I need more motivations. But no worries, I'm still trying to cope with these things, and I believe that insya'Allah, I will be okay with this kind of schedule soon. Just need some time to bear with it, you know.

I really wish I could often update although many of you would like me to focus on SPM. Yes, of course, I'm focusing, but at the same time, I don't want to abandon my blog. I need to settle my biggest problem first which is the no internet problem. Once I have the internet access in my house, I will update more.

Mainly, my life as a student is kind of blocking a little bit of my blogging life. Please, wish me luck for this year. Again, I'm very sorry for not updating, but I will definitely come back whenever I get a chance like this again. Insya'Allah, hehe. Till then, I'll be back soon!